You know. I just realized this today.

I don't know if I should be amused or... disturbed.

But.... you know that thing about Aquino and Roxas right? Well.. now that I think about it, I can use one of my favorite pairings as their nickname.

If you figure it out then I applaud you. And I also apologize for making you see the same puke-tastic images I had when I thought of it too.

While recuperating I've decided to do my attempt at making Butterbeer. I've been meaning to do it before and even bought the necessary ingredients but something always comes up and I end up postponing it.

Since I've got nothing else to do and I'm tired of lying in bed all day I gave it a go.

As I'm typing this paragraph, I am waiting for the butterscotch syrup to cool. I can't find butterscotch syrup in the grocery and if I do find one I'm sure it'll cost a lot so I decided to make my own.

Okay. I'm done with the butterscotch. Now for the main drink.

Ugh damn it. The butterscotch turned out to be too salty. I added too much salt. orz

Now the Butterbeer's ruined. :/

Umm.. so.. -teary eyed- What have you been up to?

My Multiply account desu.

Paprika's another work by Satoshi Kon and the reason why I watched Paranoia Agent. I watched Paprika first, had my mind blown and went to watch Paranoia Agent (since I can't find Millenium Actress which was actually the next in my list to watch)

Rarrgh. I'm still.... wracking my brains over PA. :/

Oh, resphoina-san, you might want to watch this since your favorite seiyuu is here and she happens to play a very important role too. :D

ああ~ I wonder if there's a Li'l Slugger/Shounen Bat in our reality as well??

It was pretty stupid of me to watch Paranoia Agent right before I go back to school. Now I'll be thinking of this for a month. :/

That aside, Paranoia Agent was brilliant. It may be confusing at times but if you take time to absorb it all it will eventually make sense. :) It may require another watch-thru though but I can't do that since I don't want to obsess over it that much and I have to have a clear mind right now as much as possible.

This is bold of me to say and I am sorry for those who might be offended by this statement but I'd absolutely pick Paranoia Agent over Evangelion in terms of mindfscking. -ducks from progressive knives thrown by NGE fans-

( They were all emotionally cornered and when Li'l Slugger hit them, it was as if they were relieved.... )

I could go on and summarize the next episodes as well but.. I'm feeling tired. I just finished it, see? I'm still in the process of digesting it.

Now I'm tempted to watch Serial Experiments Lain (since many has suggested that, along with Paranoia Agent, as stories similar to Paprika).

Rrg. It's all Paprika's fault. :/

Anyway, this is now one of my favorite anime. Definitely. Watch it too, if you have the time. It's only 13 episodes! I began yesterday and stopped at episode 09 (since it was already 5 in the morning) and resumed awhile ago; it's that addictive.

I may have to watch it again sometime though. There are still some things that confuses me. I also have to warn you, if ever you'll be attached to any of the other characters aside from Ikari, Maniwa (kyaa~!!), Sagi, and Li'l Slugger, prepare to be left in the air as to what happened to them. Spoilerish but only these four's "endings" were shown. Oh! I forgot Kawazu. Yeah, his "ending" was shown too but aside from those people, everyone else's fate is up to the viewer.

Maniwa rocks!! DX Go Radar Man!! XD (If you watch this, you'll get what I mean but.. I'm not sure if you'll have the same high regard for him as me. XD)

Finally! If your feeling of fear is the same as mine (I'm afraid of the weirdest things which to most aren't scary at all) then watch this during the day. I'm a masochist and watched this at night and when I went to sleep my dream [unsurprisingly] consisted of fragments of the opening credits and scenes from various episodes. Nonetheless, I love the OP and this series as well. Give it a try! You might like it too. :D And then maybe we could talk about it.. since I want to discuss it with someone real bad...... :|

I've recently checked in a drawing rehab concluding that I can't let my awful drawing continue any longer and that I have to get it together. It took me long enough but I realize that drawing's all I've got and that my whole future depends on it. Crappy drawing is crappy and would only incur humiliation from the viewer. It's a bit depressing though; I took an Anatomy subject twice (flunking it the first time) and yet I realize I didn't learn anything. I wasted those years in college only to realize now that I haven't learned how to draw correctly. I know the terminologies and stuff, like the 8-heads measurement (which other professors say is inaccurate for us Filipinos 'cause we're small..) and foreshortening, the skeletal and muscular systems, center of gravity, etc, etc. I know all those but I haven't applied any of it to my drawings and draw according to how I want it to look, not mindful of its accuracy to the real thing. Maybe it is true.. maybe being exposed to anime blurred my view on correct anatomy. I can, however, still argue that anime artists do in fact take anatomy into account, and that they've mastered it before being able to draw those exaggerated poses and un-proportioned body parts. Anime is just famous for it's trademark extreme unrealism (is that a word?) and that why it garnered criticisms but I do think that those artists should have an ample amount of knowledge regarding the accepted standards of anatomy before adding their own flair into it. With that in mind, I can't consider my being exposed to anime while I was growing up to be the reason why I'm struggling with drawing right now; it's all my fault for insisting everything should be how I want them to be.

In a way.... I am like Nodame. Hmm. I didn't give a shit about how things should be done until I realize that I can't go on doing everything my way. And according to a professor of mine, we don't draw for our selves--we draw for the audience and they have to appreciate it for it to be considered as an art. Hmm. :ponders:

So now I'm going back to basics--I'm re-learning how to draw all over again. I completely ditched my "own style" since it only involves the head and nothing more. I control myself not to draw any detailed busts/heads at the moment and focus on full-body drawings, applying the points given by Mr. Loomis (c/o Nine-san. Thanks.) As much as I want to take things slowly, I somehow want to be "geared up" for the incoming term which is a few weeks from now, so I have until then to do this.

When I'm through with this or when I can decently draw people I'll draw man-pr0n. I'm not kidding. It's the first in my list of "things-I-want-to-draw-but-can't-because-of-my-fscking-crappy-drawing" (long title) and actually one of the things that pushed me to re-learn all this. ..since I....attempted to do one before and it was...."horrible" is an understatement. O____O;;

Gah. It's already 4am!! Sleep before study (only applicable during break). Dewa matta!